Monday, June 19, 2017

Every time you intentionally ignore a call, or skip a reply, or leave it unread... Remember this

There will come a time that name will never appear on your screen again. You will never hear that voice. Or read those words. Or get a reply when you are badly in need of one.
Maybe that's what you want... Or maybe that is what you dread.

I know the worth of an unanswered message. It haunts me to this day, because you are in another world where whatever I type may reach you, but it will never come back as a name on my screen. I often wonder what that last conversation could have been. If only I could pass on that feeling of valuing someone's presence... to those who choose to not be around, intentionally, even when they can.

When a bridge burns there are two ways to deal with it. Kill the fire and rebuild or just escape like the bridge never existed.

There was a time, I used to be the first kind. Trying to mend broken planks, tying secure knots to fill voids. But some fires are beyond my hands. And over time I realised, some bridges can't be fixed alone. There are chances you'll burn yourself.

So now I let the bridge burn. Maybe add some more fuel to it. So even if you turn around, the smoke of the fire will hide my presence.

And as that last shard falls off, I make my promise to never meet you on the same side again.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

I am heartbroken tonight
Because I thought the wounds had healed
The walls tore down
It bled all over again
As if it were only yesterday

I wish my heart was as cold as my stare
My mind as distant as my feet
I want to cry you out of me
Wipe the slate of my brain clean
Leave no signs of you within me
And no memories around

I was damaged when we met
I thought you could fix me
If not the old me, atleast a better me
But you left me so broken
That the pieces are scattered too far to ever meet

I have no words to say to you
I have no love or forgiveness for you
I just have the pain you left me
Mere questions with no answers
Hoping you will see yourself in my shoes someday
And hoping I'll be there to see you that way